I am always very jealous of the people who have friends that they have known since birth, then they go to school together, go off to college together, and then their kids are friends. I wish I could say that this was me. Aside from my cousin I have one really close friend that has been there forever. I never remember meeting her or becoming friends with her she was just there. We still keep in contact, although I wish we did a better job at it (I am taking over half the blame for that). She is always there are we can talk like we have never been apart and I love her for that.
In grade school I made friends but in the transition to high school I pretty much lost contact with all of them. I was one of the only people from my friends in grade school that went to the high school that I went to. I was oddly okay with that though because I thought that I would just meet my amazing friends in high school. I made friends in high school and had a great time. Everyone used to tell me that I was the person that could fit in and get along with all the different groups in our class. I took this as a very large compliment and never thought of the negative side of this until later on. What this really means is I was never close enough with any group to be included in their activities. When they are all back at home and catch up I am not included. This hurt quite a bit because I would see pictures of everyone hanging out or hear them talk about it and it would feel awful. Now do not feel bad for me, if I see someone that I know when I am home we will talk and catch up. I have even met up with some of my friends from high school for coffee. But I do not have one of those groups of friends back home that other people in college talk about how they already have plans to hang out when they go back home for summer. I regularly talk to one friend from high school and I am crazy thankful for that.
Now, moving on to the crazy girls I am amazingly close to now. The transition to college last year was hard for me. I missed my family and I missed my hometown. Then one day I walked into a girls room across the hall from me and that was one of the best choices I have made in college. That is how I met the amazing girls that I am best friends with in college today. They are insane and funny. They have become my support system away from home. Their job titles range from friend, study buddy, therapist, to clown and any job you can think of in between. I truly hope that these friendships do not turn into my friendships of the past that fizzle away when we move into our next step of life.
Finally, I mentioned my cousin early and for this story to be complete she deserves a huge shout out. Her and I are pretty much sisters, not we never lived that close to each other but that does not matter. We talk to each other all the time and we are pretty close in age so that does not hurt either. We can tell each other anything and laugh together. She has even offered to beat up a boy for me. I know that no matter what I can tell her anything and get honest advice. She is always there and we are always ready to catch up with each other. She has seen me at the best of times and been there next to me during the worse of times. She still loves me all the same.
I know if anyone is reading this they are probably tired of reading but I have one more thing. You may be thinking why did you tell us all that information. Well, I was thinking about this the other day and I was thinking I do not regret any of those friendships even the ones I lost because they taught me something about myself and about other people. Never be so afraid of losing a friend that you do not make them a friend in the first place. If you follow that you may miss out on some of the best people in your life.
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