Finals Week

Hello Everyone,

I can finally say Merry Christmas because it is December and that is exciting. Since it is December my semester is wrapping up. I am in the process of getting ready for Final's Week (also known as a College Students nightmare). I am a little stressed right now. I will not be posting until my finals are over (if there is anyone who actually reads my blog). Over winter break I am going to try to post more frequently, which I know it is not hard to post more than I have been. But this has been my first semester in the upper level of my program and there was definitely a learning curve.

I will have a lot of posts in the rest of December (after finals) because I love this time of year. I will have posts about how I celebrate with my friends and family. I might be able to sneak the friends one in during finals week if I finish some of my finals early and am able to study without being too distracted.

I also am planning on trying to find a schedule to work with next semester. I am hoping once a week trying to get a blog up, but it might be once every other week.

If you have any blog posts you would like me to do, please leave a comment! If you want to hear my opinion on something or learn a little bit more about me just let me know.

Merry Christmas,
                            Bekah

Facing Fears

So as I have said before I live in the Midwest. With this piece of information we all know that there is snow where I live and we get quite a bit in the months between November and March. Well the snow began for the year on Friday to Saturday night. This is the first snow that we have gotten this year that has stuck and accumulated on the ground. While I love snow and am devastated if I think there will not be a white Christmas I have one major fear that comes with snow. DRIVING!!!

I do not like driving in the snow. It makes me nervous. I am not exactly sure where this fear has come from. I am fine if other people are driving in the snow, I just get scared if I have to drive. Also if the snow is already on the ground I am fine, I just do not like driving while it is snowing. I get scared because you could be doing everything correct and lose control of the car and other people are sometimes crazy drivers in the snow.

Of course, it would happen that during this first snow I have to drive an hour to babysit for a family. I was freaking out a little bit. I woke up that morning and spent time praying for calmness and safety. I left to be on my way and spent the time in the car praying. Thankfully, I was safe on my drive and had a great time babysitting.

It is important to remember that God is bigger than all of your fears. He is protecting you all the time and keeps you in His arms. God provided me with a sense of calmness and strength. I am not saying my fear of driving in the snow had been cured, but I now know with God I can handle it and stay calm.

Perfect Fall Day

Today, has been the perfect fall day. I got up and got ready for my day. Put in a load of laundry. Then I went to church and brunch. Then I came back and cleaned a little and now I am watching football and working on some homework things. Most of the time I try to be very productive on Saturday so my Sunday can be a little more relaxed. I think Sundays are the day where I feel the most rejuvenated. I try to spend time every Sunday relaxing and doing things that I enjoy. Sundays set up your week so take the time for your Sunday to be relaxing and prepare you for your week.

In the rest of my Sunday, I plan and watching more football, getting a little homework done, giving myself a face mask, and watching a movie. It should be an amazing day!

50 days Left

There are fifty days left in this semester (or so  I have been told). Which to me is unbelievably exciting and scary. I am at the point in the semester where all I want to do it lay in bed, watch movies, and sleep. That being said I am also in the point of the semester where I have five billion things to do. So those things sadly do not go together. But I just ask that you pray for me and I will try to get on a schedule for posting soon. I have a few posts to do I just have to take the time to sit down and write them. Which is something I am very short on right now.

A Place I Belong

Do you ever feel like you have not found the place you belong in life? I know that I belong in my family and this is not where the problem is. My problem has always been finding the place I belong when it comes to friendships. I have always felt a disconnect in a lot of these relationships. Now do not feel horrible for me, I have always had friends that I can hang out with sometimes I wish there was just a little more.

In grade school I knew that I did not fit in with the people I was "friends" with. Due to the fact that I went to a really small school I did not have much of a choice in people to hang out with.

In high school I had friends and was friends with most people. I considered myself the floater friend. I could get along with most of the groups in my class. This also meant that I was not close enough with anyone to really be considered part of a group. Which means that now in my life when I go home I hang out with my family which I love. But I do not have friends who want to see me when I am home for breaks or friends who want to visit me at college.

In college I have found a group of friends, but I do not know if it is because of the friendships that I have had in the past but I do not feel like I fit quite right some of the time. I feel like everyone else's relationship is stronger.

I do not know, I may completely be the problem. I am not going to lie I am jealous of the people who have had a life long best friend that has been there for every part of the journey. I am jealous of the people who have friends that want to see them when they go home. Maybe it is just my own insecurity that is causing the problem now. I just know sometimes I wonder if I will always just kind of be alone.

Please do not freak out if you read this. I was starting to think about this tonight and decided to write out my feelings. I promise I am fine, sometimes for me it is better if I have somewhere to express myself rather than just bottling things up.

At Least I am Sure

If this semester has not taught me anything else it has made me sure that I want to be a teacher. I am sure that next semester will cement this even more. I have a ton of work this semester in my classes and one of my classes is awful. BUT I have never considered that I should not be going for Early Childhood Education. I know that it will be more than worth it when I have my own class of crazy kids around me. A lot of my bigger projects are starting to have some of the pieces come together which is nice. It makes me feel a little better about the work load that I have. I also always feel like I need to be completing homework which sucks. I know that many of my finals this semester are projects and I already know what they are. This makes it feel like I should always be doing some sort of homework. This can make trying to enjoy my free time kind of hard.

If you have anything you would like me to write about please let me know and I will get to it as soon as possible.

My Classes

I am taking seven classes this semester which is pretty crazy. My schedule is a little different than your typical college schedule. As many of you know more of your classes meet Monday/Wednesday/Friday or Tuesday/Thursday. Well I have one class that meets Tuesday/Thursday and the rest of my classes meet once a week for a three hour block (Except for one of my classes that meets four times during the semester for four hours each time). I am taking my Early Childhood classes so that is interesting. It is defineitely a different schedule type to get used to though especially when planning out your homework. But school has been going pretty well. I have only had each class either once or twice so I am not quite ready to tell you how I feel about the classes yet.