Time Stands Still

This summer I am having some of the weirdest feelings that I have had. I am enjoying my summer. I am loving my job, being home with my family, and relaxing. It feels like the summer is flying by! It is already a week into July and I have 25 days left for the main job that I do in the summer. I know the month of July will continue to fly by because it is when we have the biggest event of the summer at my work so it always goes fast.

You are probably wondering why I names this post Time Stands Still and just told you that my summer seems to be flying by. This is because when I think about it I cannot believe it is already July, but I also feel like the summer may never end. I miss school and having a different schedule than I do in the summer, I really miss my friends from school because at home I feel like their is a disconnect. I think that most of the people I would consider my close friends I miss a lot and wish they did not live so far away. I also miss just being on my own, which if you know me you probably cannot believe that I am saying that. It is hard to go from only having to worry about yourself and doing things the way you like them to be done and transition back into living at home. I would never say I am not happy to be at home because I am grateful and love my family.

This summer is also weird because next summer I will be preparing for my first teaching job. So I feel in this weird place of not wanting to wish away my summer, but also being ready to go back to college. I know that next summer will look very different from this one (I could be moving somewhere for a job). I will post about that more as I figure it out because it is still a year away.

Let me know if you feel in a weird middle place in any part of your life. It is weird to try to explain but I am sure other people feel this way too.

Standing Still

It is weird when you are feeling like the people around are all moving forward and you are standing still. I know that I am doing things to forward my schooling and my career, but I feel most of this feeling when it relates to my personal life. The people around me are building relationships. They are meeting their significant others and building friendships. I know that I have good friendships at this point in my life. I struggle more with this when thinking about significant others. I know that in life I want to be married and have a family. I have been single for about 4 years. In that time I have not had much of a relationship at all. I feel like all the people around me are finding people, falling in love, getting engaged, and getting married.

I know that God has plans for everyone and it is going to happen in the best timing. It can be hard to keep telling myself this when I feel like everyone is moving in that direction. I try to remember that God has planned for me the greatest man that I could ever imagine. I know that He is working to make both of us ready to be the person the other one needs. I try to focus on becoming the best person I can be and this will translate into being the best wife I can be.

If you have any Bible verses, personal stories, or encouragement, please leave them in the comments. We could all use a little support.

I Passed!

About a month ago I took a test that I needed to pass in order to get my teaching license. This test has just been brought in for future teachers to take. So, that means professors do not know how to help exactly and there are not many other students who have already taken it. I got my scores yesterday and I passed which is a huge relief. I still have things to accomplish before I am officially a teacher but this is one of the things that was weighing most heavy on my shoulders.

I am so excited to become a teacher in a year. I cannot wait to help students inside and outside of the classroom. I think a teacher is one of the most rewarding jobs that I could have. Some children in the love and stability that is provided during the school day. My goal is to make sure that each one of my future students know that I care and they can come to me. I want to teach them things that will make them successful inside and outside of the classroom.

Hello Again

So it has been six months since I have posted on here. I would apologize, but I do not think that anyone actually reads this or missed my posts. I am going to try to post more because I really do enjoy just getting things about life off of my chest. It makes me feel better, especially the things that I do not necessarily want to tell anybody about. So time to catch you up on what has happened in my life in the past six months.

1) I finished my hardest semester of school. I took 20 credits of Education classes and I am still shocked I survived. It was stressful and crazy, but it also showed me the amazing people I have in my life. It also showed me what I can accomplish when I set my mind to it. That being said this means that I only have one semester of classes left and then one semester of student teaching.

2) I took a test that I have to pass to get my teaching license. The most stressful part about it is waiting for my scores (so hopefully you will see a celebration post soon).

3) I had new experiences with my friends and we got a lot better at driving into the city.

4) I started at a new location for my summer job. So I have been working to make it as successful as possible. For the parade and carnival we put on our theme is African Safari, so let me know if you have any ideas.

5) I turned 21!!! Which was exciting although since my semester was so stressful it was a pretty chill event. I just went out and got my free margarita and then went to bed so I could wake up for class in the morning.

6) My brother's senior year basketball and baseball season both ended at the state tournament. They were both amazing experiences to be a part of and it was extremely exciting.

Those are the huge things that have happened to me. I will try to post more frequently if anybody does read this. If you do read I would love to receive a comment or email from you :)

2016

It is 2016 and it is a new year. So many people make resolutions and I am normally one of those people. I am a person who makes a list, follows it for a month, and then forgets I wrote it until I begin to think about resolutions for the next year.

This year I decided to do something different. I did not write a long list of resolutions. This is not because I have a perfect life or nothing I want to change because I need to work on both of those things.

I have decided to make 2016 the year I become a better me, without writing a list of resolutions. I am going to change things by waking up each morning and working on being a better me. Not having a long checklist of things, but making daily decisions to be a better me. This may mean eating healthy, working out, or taking the time to relax. Whatever daily decisions I make I want to work to be happier and more confident.


Happy New Year Everyone! You can tell me your resolutions or goals down below.

Finals Week

Hello Everyone,

I can finally say Merry Christmas because it is December and that is exciting. Since it is December my semester is wrapping up. I am in the process of getting ready for Final's Week (also known as a College Students nightmare). I am a little stressed right now. I will not be posting until my finals are over (if there is anyone who actually reads my blog). Over winter break I am going to try to post more frequently, which I know it is not hard to post more than I have been. But this has been my first semester in the upper level of my program and there was definitely a learning curve.

I will have a lot of posts in the rest of December (after finals) because I love this time of year. I will have posts about how I celebrate with my friends and family. I might be able to sneak the friends one in during finals week if I finish some of my finals early and am able to study without being too distracted.

I also am planning on trying to find a schedule to work with next semester. I am hoping once a week trying to get a blog up, but it might be once every other week.

If you have any blog posts you would like me to do, please leave a comment! If you want to hear my opinion on something or learn a little bit more about me just let me know.

Merry Christmas,
                            Bekah

Facing Fears

So as I have said before I live in the Midwest. With this piece of information we all know that there is snow where I live and we get quite a bit in the months between November and March. Well the snow began for the year on Friday to Saturday night. This is the first snow that we have gotten this year that has stuck and accumulated on the ground. While I love snow and am devastated if I think there will not be a white Christmas I have one major fear that comes with snow. DRIVING!!!

I do not like driving in the snow. It makes me nervous. I am not exactly sure where this fear has come from. I am fine if other people are driving in the snow, I just get scared if I have to drive. Also if the snow is already on the ground I am fine, I just do not like driving while it is snowing. I get scared because you could be doing everything correct and lose control of the car and other people are sometimes crazy drivers in the snow.

Of course, it would happen that during this first snow I have to drive an hour to babysit for a family. I was freaking out a little bit. I woke up that morning and spent time praying for calmness and safety. I left to be on my way and spent the time in the car praying. Thankfully, I was safe on my drive and had a great time babysitting.

It is important to remember that God is bigger than all of your fears. He is protecting you all the time and keeps you in His arms. God provided me with a sense of calmness and strength. I am not saying my fear of driving in the snow had been cured, but I now know with God I can handle it and stay calm.